LenTheGardener

I try to walk away. I get  rocks thrown in my face. He/She. No one calls me by my name. They don't get that I'm the same. He/She. In the closet I have to hide. No one can see what is inside. He/She. I get up. Brush off the dirt. Try to act like their  jeers don't hurt. He is me.

 They say it will get better. Well, I cannot wait forever. I am sick of always wearing a sweater To keep out this horrid weather. I am alone When we should be together.

   I face my biggest foe tonight. I look him straight in the  eyes. I demand to know what he has to hide. Then  I am surprised. I realize. I am staring at my own reflection. It’s from myself I need protection. I will be my own demise as long as I wear this disguise. I need to leave the me. I do not recognize.

I laid awake in my bed one night  pondering my past, present and future. I noticed that my past had it's share of heartache , some of which still lingered and I feared it forever would. My present was rather uneventful , but  I would rather it be that way than have the events of my past  reoccur. Then there was hope for my future , I was meant for  something great ,as are we all, I  could feel it somewhere deep within me in a place I had yet to go to.  Once I found that place in my self , my greatness would spill out profusely. I remembered walking through the  enormous redwood forest and coming to the realization that We are all just a  smal

" MMMmm , don't. " She winced , her face contorting in pain. "  I have to" I whispered apologetically, pressing  my hand into her wounded right thigh. "Good thing you're a nurse . " she joked weakly. " I guess huh? " I chuckled " I need you to keep your eyes open and keep talking to me , you're losing a lot of blood , but help is on the way, I promise , just keep your eyes open." " What happened? " she asked , seeming a little confused. I told her that we were crossing the street and some idiot whipped out a gun and shot at us , I explained to her that she was a hero for jumping in front of me, the intended target. There was a sin

My Dear I apologize deeply for being the source of  your pain. The reason for your loved ones leaving my love, I am to blame. Words can not express the regret I feel inside. It's better we never met. It's better we never locked eyes.

We had fallen asleep on my couch sometime later without realizing it. I opened my eyes searching for a strange sound I was hearing. It was her whimpering , she was having a nightmare. I kissed her cheek" you're having a dream, love , you'll be okay " I cooed in her ear. Her eyes fluttered open , full of fear. She clung to me tightly , her tears drenched my shoulder," He hit me !" She sobbed , " He was yelling at me about you being there and he hit me." I held her firmly against me " The next time he lays a hand on you ,  he will lose his hands " I vowed " I wont let him hurt you " I got ready for work ,made her breakfast and reminded her" Don